Monday, February 2, 2009
~I AM NOT A SHOPAHOLIC....AM I?~
Years ago I loved ships. I used to want a model of an old sailing ship for my home..but I never could afford one. I would have settled for a painting or print of one...but couldn't really afford that either. One day, on one of my junk store adventures, I found this plate and never longed for a ship after that. It must have satisfied the yearning. I have noticed that if I don't get some coveted item, the passion for it eventually seems to leave me. Even if the day comes and I can have it, I walk on by. However..I go on these..buying rampages. I get a feeling like "I HAVE to go find something! Anything! What if THE item that is perfect is out there and someone else finds it!! I HAVE to GO!" :) And I have to say, there is something satisfying about it. It fullfills some need in me. Decorating, for me, is actually a reason to get up in the morning. I think it has kept me going at times of sorrow and loss. It is truly a passion and I have had it since I was 17 and a newly wed. Anyway...I love my plate. Do you really think there is such a thing as a "shopaholic?" I don't think I am that far gone..or should I say I have never thought of myself as such. Hmmm...I need to think about this. I always thought you were a shopaholic if you bought things you didn't have money for and had to charge them..got yourself in trouble in that way? No? Naw...I can't be one of those...
I mean I don't buy things just to be buying things and then take them back. I HATE returning something though I must say I am quicker to take something back that is flawed or won't work etc. than I used to be. Has someone told me I'm a shopaholic..well..yes they have. I mean it was never a HUGE deal..but I was teased a bit. I have things to do..I'll think about this tomorrow. :)