Thursday, December 8, 2016


I will do the best I can to get through this post.   It's been so long since I have posted that I have sort of  forgotten now it's this may or may not get finished.  Depends.

First of all..thank you so much to my dear blog friends that have contacted me and those who may have wondered what happened to me.
Partly I think "taking a little break" just ran into days and then into months.  Then tragedy began to happen to me.  I've already had a lot of loss, as you may know and I have picked myself up and went on after my little companion Mele died on September 7th.   I thought my heart was broken then...but I knew from experience that time would help...only time..

Then my daughters gave me another little dog for my 80th birthday in October and life went on.
He is a little boy and his name is "Buddy"...
Little did I life would once again shatter and fall at my feet....worse.

On November 19th my first born child,  my son Patrick, died suddenly of a heart attack and a massive stroke that happened during the surgery.  My husband Pat, also died of a massive stroke and as in a nightmare I watched my son at nearly the same age as his father...linger for only two days and then made his transition.  He was never alone for one moment.  We stood vigil all night in shifts in ICU.and most of the time there was 22 of us by his side.  Then we knew that it was nearly over and softly each of by one began singing Bob Dylan's "BLACKBIRD"  and then he let go and was gone. His sisters and brothers were so strong...all of my family was.  His wife..she is just lost right now.  I know exactly how she feels.  She lost her soul mate as I once lost mine.  We all clung together and sobbed...

The nurses never once said a word about the number of people in his cubicle...and brought us a cart of coffee and drinks.  From time to time someone would bring food...little was eaten.
My son is gone..and this is the second child I have lost in a very short time.  We are still healing from my first born daughter, Sandy.  Family flew in from Georgia, Colorado, San Francisco... Pat and Sandy were the "big brother and big sister" of my children.  Most of you know I have seven.  I will always say "I have seven children" until the day I die.  

We are devastated!  So...this is what has happened to me.  This is the first time I have spoken in detail of it.  And as it is with Sandy, I see him everywhere..hear his voice saying "Hey Mom!"

This is a bad time for me.
I will be back perhaps...but maybe not.  I've been through death before but this...this is almost too much.  My life is upside down right now.  I cannot post a picture of my son.  It's way too soon.  I have written some of the details because some have was sudden.  To dear friends who read my blog but don't blog themselves ...and I can't talk about it over and this is what happened.
Again...thank you for inquiring after me..  It is so appreciated.

Saturday, June 25, 2016


When I first moved to this little home, I remember sitting on the front porch and thinking all the things I would love to do to make it cozier.. The wrought iron railing across the front was pretty, but it was black and didn't show up.  The screen door was black and not very inviting.  
So I painted the railing white and replaced the front screen door with a new white one and began furnishing  the porch and adding plants.  I brought my fountain with me and it tucked it into a corner..added white wicker, pretty cushions, more plants, and more and more plants.. *Please be sure to click on the photo because..I don't read directions and my pictures come out too dark to really see things.
One day I will learn... maybe! :) *

So last week I finally did it!  I completed my little dream front porch.  The end fence and gate were added exactly as I had once envisioned. 
Now Mele' can join me on the porch in the morning when I have my coffee.  She does not run away but will wander and sniff and I could not relax so this way I don't have to watch her every move.  She usually curls up at my feet..but one never knows when a kitty will wander by and I am not taking any chances.  She is delighted to be invited out each time I head for the front porch.
Neighbors gather...
venders linger
So does the mailman,
..and at 4 this morning...a neighborhood kitty had the nerve to climb over the fence and helped himself to a nice cool drink from the fountain.
How did I know this?
BIG MOUTH Mele' told me!  That's how!  :)

The water flows in the fountain all the time and during this heat the little birds gather.  There were four tiny hummingbirds  and other birds gathered on the ficus tree's and on top of the fountain trying to keep cool.   It's shady and a great place to hide from this Summer heatwave.

Happy Summer everyone..

Much love to you....

Monday, May 23, 2016


Here we are, pushing June AND I have nothing.
NOTHING, I tell you!!  
This is a picture taken this Easter with PH's family..his grandsson and wife and their little girl turning a year in June.  PH's first great.   I am nine ahead of him.  
Please click to enlarge.   It helps a PH and I a little.  lol  I said "a little!"
I have been so terrible about taking pictures..and posting and it's not getting a lot better very fast and I apologize for that.  Springtime usually finds me in the back yard messing with the patio and yard but the heat will drive me back in soon.

There are new pictures of us on facebook, posted by family and if it were not for family, there would be no pictures of us at all.  Truthfully, I am not fond of looking at pic's of myself and neither is Howard.  Not any more!!  :) 

I have ordered a little gate for our front porch with a heart on it.  It should be here by the 30th of this month...according to the Professional IronWorks.  I will take a picture of it when it's installed.  

I hope all of you are well and that this election business isn't driving you as nuts as it is me!
Sometimes I leave PH all alone watching the news.  He hates it when I scream at the TV.  :)

Take good care..