...and give it the old college try.
I know it's been awhile and a dear friend suggested I "say something" so my blogger friends will know I'm alive. :)
The thing is that sometimes in life, the well runs dry and I suppose that's what happened to me.
I have so much catching up to do that it's overwhelming!
I've loved blogging, I really have, but somehow I seem to have lost my enthusiasm for it.
And...I can't find it.
Believe me, I've looked!
I still enjoy reading .and visiting..but I think my everyday life has come into focus and I am realizing how quickly the time is racing by. I have friends, family and slowing down has had an effect on doing the things I once did.
Blogging is just one of them.
With my family
it's .."Can Mom walk that far?" or "Won't she get tired of standing in line?" that sort of thing...and they are totally right. It's hard on me anymore.
It saddens me that I can do so little in the yard before I give in and head for the lawn swing and collapse into a little pool of worn out human. Relief sweeps over me. Before long I'm dozing while my clippers and gloves lay there on the table, one glove on the stone floor signaling how fast I yanked them off!
I keep thinking it will pass, and the days go by. I used to shop the mall and it was so exciting, drifting in and out of the stores, seeing all the pretties I would love to buy.
I don't care.
My soft old sweat pants and cozy T's and comfortable old slippers are just fine.
Hair gets wadded up and clipped to the back of my head.
Sometimes I MAKE myself put on a bit of blush and then walk away in disgust.
No, it's not self pity. It's just plain acceptance. It would not matter if I lost a bunch of weight, dyed my hair and fiddled around trying to make this aging face look...a little better. It's what it is.
I've arrived in the elderly department...and it's really not so bad. Not at all.
I just told the BIGGEST LIE! Some day's it really DOES matter.
I still like to decorate.
Go to garage sales..sometimes.
Have company over...sometimes.
It's just that sitting in my comfy desk chair and suddenly realizing that a couple of hours have zoomed by while I visit, comment and get lost in what I really enjoy doing. Blogging. It's been so much fun. I've really enjoyed every minute.
I'm trying to get my motor started again..but it keeps stalling.
This is a stuttering try..
I know I'm not the only one that goes through being relieved to walk away from the computer.
Like right now..
I think sometimes we just plain get tired.
Have a wonderful rest of the week.
Thank you for gently encouraging me...and for your understanding
You know who you are. :)