First I want to thank those of you who wrote offering support. Perhaps some of you are right and this tiny health issue played a part..but mostly it was this:
My husbands family was not pleased with his decision to marry after being alone just a year. Actually 14 months. There was a lot of anger with a bit of violence thrown in. We seemed to have worked it through..but on Sunday evening it became very clear to me that the problem has just been swept under the rug and that I remain the enemy and that the words of apology that were spoken to me were insincere.
It is useless to try and explain but I am going to try. Suffice to say I am in a family that I simply do not belong in...and it hurts. My husband is a dear and sweet man. We are trying so hard to be happy. WE are getting old. Time is of the essence here. Yes, he and I are very different, but it works for us for the most part. I am dealing with anger here in this family.
Now..between family matters which have about broken my heart...to coming on and visiting blogs I love and women I have grown to care for...to find anger...and controversy and side taking...I was just disheartened. I will try and stay away from controversy! I will not deal with life and then come on here and watch or read hatred and anger! I cannot. I won't. As they say..if you do not like what I say on my blog...don't come back. So I won't.
I am so sad..so sad. I liked these people from what I knew of them. Funny, intelligent and appeared so kind. We can all write what we want...that is so true...but I feel right now as though I have lost something.
A bit of the joy of blogging has lost it's charm for now. Can you all understand that? Perhaps my eyes are just opened. Perhaps it was all just too good to be true!
I admit to thinking that at times.
So..in closing this..I just want to say ...I do not care what your religion is...or your political agenda or your sexual preferences or if you are married or single or talented or not talented, short, tall, thin fat...blah blah...I care only if you are kind. A good person. Not hurtful. Not full of anger.
At this late stage of the game I want peace. I've seen a President shot, his brother shot, dirty politics, lost two precious husbands, had a brother who I adore so badly injured in an accident that he is a quad, etc. etc. and there are those with lots more on their plates than I have. I DO NOT want to come here and read anger and hatred for a young President who is just getting off the ground without giving him a chance. That is just my choice. I love my country but I am not blind to her faults. I am hurting here and I am tired. A dear bloggy friend is suffering from a brain tumor and facing surgery. THAT is what interests me. Trying in some ...way to comfort her. There are truly tragic things in this world...without making problems when none need exist. We are Americans FIRST. Aren't we? I am so ...discouraged at this time.
I will leave you with this message. IF YOU CANNOT SAY SOMETHING NICE...DON'T SAY ANYTHING AT ALL. I care about all of you..very much. I am exercising my freedom of speech, not my freedom to hate and cause unrest and divide.
It will hurt if I lose followers...but if I do..I will survive.
Hugs and love to all.
So...wanna see my new iron! :)