Friday, May 15, 2009
~WHY, WHY, WHY....~
I will make this short. I am tired and saddened by the "Farrah Fawcett" story that I just finished watching on television. Two of my precious husband's have died of cancer..Patrick passed quickly, within ten days of finding out he was ill. Cancer of the lungs.
Cancer killed Frank within three months of finding out he was ill. Cancer of the liver. I don't want to go into what we went through. Farrah said it all and the questions she left us with...I would like answered.
I lost both my Mother and my Father of cancer. My Father's cancer was slow and miserable as was my Mother's.
With Patrick..I was sure he would get up and leave the emergency room..he didn't.
With Frank..the same..both big strong wonderful men. Both way too young to die.
Pat was only 63 and our retirement life was just ahead of us. March 3, 1999 was the day we dreamed of starting our wonderful time of travel...
It never happened.
The same with Frank...I had a new life...for such a short time..and Cancer took him.
You see, I didn't want to watch the Farrah's Story..I felt I had been through enough and could not bear to see it happen once again..up close. I made myself do it because I felt I owed it to both of my husbands. I decided not to turn my face away and feel sorry for myself. She was trying to give us something..
I'm glad I did. Maybe...just maybe ...some of the questions she asked will be answered because they are my questions too.
Love to all..