You know, I get tempted, because Thanksgiving isn't at our home this year, to put my Autumn decor away and get going on Christmas.
Not sure why, but I just cannot seem to do it.
The pictures below were taken with my old camera a few years ago.
Last years Christmas tree? I just cannot remember.
I think this may have been the year before..but..
here's what has me lying awake at night. (I'm kidding!)
I've been thinking of giving in and finding lovely fake tree and not going to the tree lots looking for that perfect tree.
There are no more little ones to insist that we go to the tree farm.
Okay, THEY didn't insist. I wanted to go! I was first in the car! :)
But..I'm old now and beginning to notice that it's more difficult to do what I have always done.
My heart and my head want to go look..sniff deeply of the pine scent in the air...watch other people and their little ones search..ponder and then pass to the next tree.
A big hole in that one.
The top is crooked.!
But it's cold out, crowds everywhere. Shouldn't I just find a pretty real LOOKING fake tree?
So..I began looking. I shopped the internet. I saw the high prices and tried to think.."but..this is an investment!" I found that a really pretty real looking tree cost..A LOT! I do not want to spend that kind of money on a tree that is not real.
Then I thought.. "What if I only get to use it a year..two..three..and besides, how many more Christmas's do I have to smell the sweet fragrance of pine and let the memories of taking my children to find that perfect tree come flooding back. The hot chocolate and hot dog's by a roaring fire pit, and them running to find me when they finally find their perfect tree!
It all comes back to me every year.
So..our home will have a pretty fresh Nobel Christmas tree this year..and I'll decorate it..more slowly, and alone as PH and his late wife had stopped having Christmas trees and he just doesn't understand my need to do what I do. So I'll decorate it and sit by the fire with my PH and watch the lights blink and twinkle and enjoy the smile on his face when he sees the end result.
I'll hope the children find time to come and see it..
I'll set the dining room table as though Christmas dinner were going to be here, and I'll put toys under the tree for decoration instead of stacking it with piles of gifts for my children as their father and I did so many years ago.
I'll put my little gifts for PH under the tree, and hope he will get used to what I do at Christmastime.
Our family has gotten so large that each of my children only give gifts to their own little families and one gift to put under the tree for our gift exchange game at my daughters home.
We gather in a huge circle..both for Thanksgiving and for Christmas and hold hands.
Our gift to each other is just being together.
A prayer is said and then we speak of my daughter, Sandy, and her father, both victims of cancer, and their stepfather who was only with us for six years. Another victim of cancer.
someone (usually one of my crazy sons) always says something funny..and everyone laughs..and our holidays begin.
I've noticed something.
Not a single one of my grown children have fake tree's!
I'm in a rush to decorate, but I can wait! It's tradition in our family to wait..and so I will. But if you are decorating early for Christmas, I'll come and peek at your beautiful decorations!!
Nope..it's not in me to decorate early but when you have lots and lots, I can see why some dear folks start early. I believe it's their Christmas gift to others.
P.S, I put some candy canes in a little vintage creamer in the living room..I just couldn't help it!!